A delightful hello to my loyal readership I sincerely hope that your day has been kind to you, and given you all you wanted. I have had one of this ‘depressive person’ days. Laying in bed, sleeping and ocassionly trying to work out why I should go on.
I have my various mental health teams giving me different ways to heal myself even though this is a problem, a health matter I have coped with since I was seven, and generally managed to lead a near ‘normal’ life, without the dramas I am having now. So I need to ask myself why!
I think my biggest problem is the horrid terror near death experience in June last year The medical teams (I have three diferent ones working on the different issues) do not know what is going on, where or what the problem is, so the bottom line is no one knows what needs to be fixed or how. I do not care who you are or how strong you are this would be impossible to deal with and keep your mental heallth where it should be.
I have those wonderful days I can do anything I need and want to do, then I have the ones that make me feel as if I have been put though a mincer backwards. This take my freedom from me as I can not know on what days I can plan to do things. Well I have been offered this tutoring job and after much soul searching I have decided that I am going to go for the interview and see how it goes.
I am going to visit a naturopath (I am a hippie at heart) as I believe that listening to the body/mind can health the body health far faster and better than Western doctors. I am going to start doing does daily personal incarnations to see if that can make a difference, I have mates that swear by them.
I just know that I have had enough of listening to medicial people that keep telling me different matters, different ways to deal with it and all I end up it loosing days, feeling worse about myself and wantng to end it all. I am going to take this back into my own hands and see if I can aleast gain some of me back!
Again thank you for reading my words, I very much appreciate it. I hope that your day is wonderful and that everything you do is blessed.