Good Evening and I hope that you have had a restful weekend. I am going to be really self-centered tonight, so if you have other things to deal with, I will wish you good night, sweet dreams and enjoy tomorrow. I will be most understanding as I sometimes have too much of my own stuff to do to listen to another’s problems. I just want to put this out into this community as I spent time over the weekend reading many of my fellow bloggers work on this site to find that most of you do share problems from time to time.
I have been really good for the end of this last week, and have been working on getting plans and programmes into place to support my road back to where I should be. I have been feeling better about this and not worrying about others thinking that I am weird or to be avoided because I could be dangerous. I went to sleep a little on the early side last night but woke about 1 am in a full-blown panic attack and have not been able to bring myself back to ground at all today. I am thinking that I may have to go to the hospital to make sure I do not do anything silly.
I sometimes think that I expect too much from myself, so if I state that all is good, then it will be good. I feel that maybe I have got this pretending that I have no problems or mental health issues from my entire life down to a place where I could just ignore it because I had other things to focus, but now I know it is just me I have no way of controlling it. I do know that I am really scared because I do not know what to do! I think that this is something that is not talked about out in the open so when you are having a break away from your world, you are not too sure what to do?
I am very sorry for being so selfish and making this all about me but I do feel a little more in control for have shared this. If you do have tips on what you find helpful when you are having an episode please feel free to share.