Thank you for dropping in to have a read of what is going on in my head today. I hope your day has been good to you.
I am still a little disjointed from yesterday, it can take several days for my thinking ability to return to what is normal for me these days. I have been thinking about how I can continue to be active and contribute something to society. I hate having no purpose, no direction and no idea of where to go. I try to set up a goal of some sort each day, such as my commitment to writing something for this blog each day. I am proud of myself at the moment as I have achieving this regardless of how well I have been coping with life.
I am reading many other blogs and the one thing they have in common is the writers all commit to their project. The story is different, the way they are set up, how the writer interacts with the reader, is not always the same but the writer’s belief in what they are doing is paramount to the blog appearing day after day. The writer’s belief in what they are doing translates clearly through their words.
I was enrolled in a workshop (after my coma) for those who had experienced some life threatening trauma. I found this to be enlightening, while there were the people who simply saw this as something new to learn from, others were very angry and bitter because the medical profession should not have let this happen to them. So again I found that while your interaction with others may not always be the same, your belief in who you are is paramount to the outcome.
I am not certain as to what I will do long term as I have restrictions which mean what I could do is no longer an option, such as drive a vehicle. I do know that I am not going to stop trying to master various task again, and I will find ways to do the things I am most passionate about. My daughter said to me the other day that I need to challenge myself daily, and yes I did think at the time….’a little compassion and love for your Ma would be great’, but she is right. I am a reader and whilst opting for the book I have already read makes me feel safe, I should be brave and grab the one I know I will need to jot down dates, names, plot lines to keep up with the tale, for it is only by doing this will I get my brain working again.
I need to join a least one group so I have to interact with others to see the world from more than just my view point. If nothing else my being a participant in the medical workshops showed me that it is simply the way in which you look at an issue that dictates if it is a problem or a blessing. Yes, I have aways to travel before I can state I have recreated that ‘new’ me, but to pinch the words of the great Muhammad Ali “A man who views the world the same at fifty as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life.”